Forgiveness is a pretty big pill to swallow. I say I forgive, but do I really? Am I just saying it to move past something and begrudge the person still? Will hard feelings find their way to the surface in my future dealings with this person?
God says we are supposed to forgive a million times over. Forgive our loved ones, love our enemies. Those aren’t easy things to do IRL, are they? I’m understanding, or try to be. I try to remain empathetic, but not necessarily sympathetic. I’m usually looking for the optimistic explanation, sometimes to a fault. But when I’ve been hurt, betrayed, or taken advantage of maliciously- I’ll cut you right out of my life. There’s no need to keep false pretenses. I don’t care for fakeness. And that’s where I get stuck, tripping over what I should do versus what I choose to do.
If I’m supposed to forgive and love, then there should be no need to cut a person out of my life completely, right? I mean, wth? If I’m supposed to love EVEN my enemies, then what does it say that I cut my friend/ loved one out of my life?
I dunno. I don’t really get how to do it. I just know I should forgive and love. That’s what God did for us. That’s supposed to be the footsteps I follow, non c’est pas? My Bo asked me what my 2011 resolution was going to be. I might just have to work on that whole forgiveness thingy. It may take me all year y’know?
